Full summary:
Sesshomaru and Kagome are two young lovers in a very close relationship. Kagome’s Father is an abusive, alcoholic gang leader. A killer. Their mistake changes the lover’s lives. Kagome fears for her life. Sesshomaru fears for Kagome. Can Sesshomaru save Kagome from her worst fear? Will they survive through their mistake? Can their love truly overcome anything? (Revision of Proud Mistake)
~ Chapter 1 : It Begins With An Act of Debauchery ~
It was still in the late hours of the night when Sesshomaru woke up. He smiled as he looked down upon his petite girlfriend wrapped in his strong, muscular arms holding her close. Her silky, midnight hair was draped over her back and framing her face as she slept peacefully, using his chest as a pillow. It had only just been a few hours ago that they had mated with each other, both falling asleep quickly, spent.
Consumed by the warmth of her flawless body he held her even closer, his face burring itself in her dark locks as he breathed in her marvelous scent. He couldn’t place it but, her scent; it just seemed to be stronger. Finding himself burring his face even deeper into her silky strands to get as much of it as possible. It was addictive, calming, and now it was stronger. At the moment he couldn’t bring himself to really care, all that mattered was he liked it, and he liked it a lot.
His senses were becoming blurred, his inner demon starting to stir. He carefully picked up his beautiful girlfriend and gently laid her on the bed not wanting to wake her. Crawling out of his silk sheets he picked up his discarded pajama pants and put them on before going over to the two large double doors that led to his balcony. He could feel the cool breeze of the night graze over his smooth skin.
Inhaling the cool, moist air of an early morning, freeing his senses of the strong but wonderful scent of the girl he couldn’t get enough of. Her scent had always had an intoxicating effect on him, but now even more so. ‘What has changed?’ he thought to himself. He knew that one’s scent could change over many things like mood and illness, but those were only slight differences. They did not account for this type of change.
‘What could make her scent change like this?’ he didn’t know and the not knowing part was really starting to claw at him. He thought about it, ‘Her scent seems stronger, that’s the only way I can explain it. Like she now has some of me…in…her.’ His eyes widened at his conclusion. He quickly walked back into his room and over to his large bad where his girlfriend was still sleeping peacefully.
It was just as he thought as he bent over her to really get a sniff at her; some of his own scent was now mixed in with her own. Kagome was with pup. The thought made his inner demon practically purr with pride almost as though it was bragging, ‘Look what we‘ve done…Look what we’ve made.’ He scoffed at his inner demon that was causing the feeling, ‘Yes, look at what we’ve done indeed.’ he thought guiltily.
To caught up in the moment they had been that it didn’t even seem to process in their right minds to even remember to use a condom. It had happened other times, but rarely. ‘I should have had more self-control. Last night, there was just something about her scent that made me lose any and all of my self control.’ Now though, he could guess that had happened. She had most likely been going into heat. It could have been just the very beginnings of it; just enough to change her scent but not enough to make the heat scent noticeable Now it was replaced with this one; one with their two scents intermingled within her.
His inner demon kept bringing that feeling of pride to the surface, but he wasn’t. He felt worried for her. She didn’t have a mother, only a father that didn’t give a damn about her but would still be extremely angry with her. He always had an uneasy feeling about the man, her so called father, and it scared him to bring her home. She didn’t like the man so he certainly wasn’t going to like him.
‘What’s going to happen now? How am I to tell Father about this? What about Kagome?’ His thoughts were racing with questions and kept bringing up more and more. He didn’t notice when Kagome began to stir, to busy in his own little world of the unknown.
Kagome awoke to find that she was no longer snuggled close to her boyfriend, as she had been when she had fallen asleep. It wasn’t unusual though, she just could never quite understand how he always managed to move her and get up himself without waking her when anyone or anything else could. She then looked around to see the balcony doors open, the wind causing the black sheer curtains to blow about, but no Sesshomaru. Looking to the other side of the room she saw him pacing, obviously in deep thought. It was habit, something he always did when something was on his mind or he needed to find answers. His Father was the same exact way.
“You know, you’re going to end up pacing a giant hole through your floor if you don’t stop that, Hun.” She told him in a motherly way with a small laugh. He stopped and looked at her, not being able to help the small smirk despite it all. ‘She needs to know.’ Sesshomaru thought as he prepared himself at how he was going to possibly tell her that her entire life has now been changed because of one night of debauchery.
Any way he broke the news to her, it wasn’t going to be enjoyable.
He walked over and sat down on the edge of the large bed near her. She could tell something was up and placed a comforting hand on his shoulder. “Sesshomaru, whatever it is that’s bothering you, you can tell me. What’s wrong?” she asked, concern laced all throughout her lovely voice. He turned towards her and pulled her into his lap, hugging her close to his warm body.
With one hand wrapped around her he placed the other gently over her stomach. “Kagome,” his voice low and gentle, “You are with pup.” he told her calmly, feeling a little better after he just let it out. He became confused though when she laughed lightly. “ Sesshomaru, what is that suppose to mean?” she cocked her head to the side, her eyes shining with her curiosity and giving him a slightly odd look as if he were just talking nonsense for some reason.
Nuzzling her neck and taking in some of her soothing scent he sighed, ‘Kami, let Inuyasha kill Me.’ he thought to himself. He felt her attempt to move away to most likely get a better view of him but he pulled her closer, not wanting her to. She soon gave up and relaxed, his words starting to sink in. “Sesshomaru, I- Am I. Do you mean I‘m?” she questioned uncertainly, unable to complete her sentence. He gave a small nod in confirmation to her half question. “Yes, Kagome. You’re pregnant.” he told her as he held her close, kissing her forehead.
He could feel the tears that had fallen from her face drip onto his arm that held her, trying to give her some form of comforting. “But I- I can’t be, Sesshomaru. How do you know and are you certain?” She managed to ask through her light sniffles, feeling horribly unnerved.
He loosened his grip around her so he could look her in the eyes. Bending down, he gave her a gentle kiss before nodding again, “Yes, I am certain Kagome. Your scent now has mine mixed in with you; you have the scent of a new life within you. I’m a male Inu-demon; we’re capable of telling when a female is with pup right away because we can smell it.” He explained gently, brushing some stray strands of hair off of her face in a soothing gesture that always helped to calm her.
Kagome reached for his hand and held it against her cheek and rubbed it gently while looking up into his piercing gold eyes with her own red amber ones. “Sesshomaru, what are we going to do? My Father…I can no longer go home…He…” her voice fell into a light whisper, not finishing what she was saying, a fresh tear slipping down her smooth face.
Sesshomaru pulled her close again as she began to cry into his shoulder, “Sssshh, It will be alright, Kagome. Everything is going to be fine, we’ll work everything out.” he whispered soothingly into her ear. Kagome shook her head as she pulled back to look at him again, “No, you don’t understand, Sesshomaru.” her fear spiking up again as she spoke, her tears continuously falling down her beautiful face.
His eyebrows drew together in confusion, “What don’t I understand, Kagome?” he asked as he wiped away some of the tear trails that marred her perfect skin. She sniffed some more, trying to stop her crying before she tried to explain. “I-I lied to you Sesshomaru. I lied to you all of those times when you questioned me about the numerous bruises and cuts that you found. I lied when I told you that I was just clumsy and fell. It…It was my F-Father.” she finally choked out, looking away from him.
Sesshomaru growled disapprovingly at what he was hearing and turned her rather harshly back to facing him by grabbing her chin when she looked away, though making sure that he didn‘t cause her any harm. His eyes had red flecks in them and his voice was harsh and full of disgust as he spoke to her, “ Your ‘Father’ did those things to you?” the anger dripping from his voice was tremendous. All she could do was gently nod her head with her chin still in his grip, forcing her to keep eye contact with him. More red seeped into his bright golden eyes, “You will no longer go back there alone, Kagome. I will not allow you or my pup to be in any danger. Is that understood? He growled out. She gave him another small nod, “Yes, and I agree. I wouldn’t be able to live with myself if something ever happened to an innocent child on my account.” she said as she placed her head against his shoulder again, taking in his amazing scent as she wrapped her arms around his large shoulders.
The two lovers sat there for quite some time, both lost in their own thoughts, taking comfort from each other. The calm silence was interrupted by Sesshomaru’s deep masculine voice, “Kagome.”
She jumped slightly, startled at hearing her name pierce through the silence of the early morning hours.
“What is it, Sesshomaru?” her voice holding a curious, worried tone in its softness as she looked up at him.
Sesshomaru’s face grew serious; “You cannot go to school anymore.” he informed her making her confused. “Why can’t I? There have been some pregnant girls there before. Besides, school is out in a few months, no one will know. It shouldn’t matter,” she told him in a rather matter- of -fact way. He shook his head, “It does matter, Kagome. You’re unmarked and carrying my pup, two factors that can be major risks in itself.” he said sternly, showing her that she wasn’t going to have her way no matter what she did or said.
Kagome sighed, “Fine. But I don’t understand what any of that has anything to do with It.” her voice becoming somewhat irritated. “It has everything to do with it, Kagome. You being unmarked, Kagome, leaves you without protection. I know you are capable of protecting yourself,” he stopped her from interrupting him, “But that was also before you became pregnant. Using your powers when you’re pregnant could put the pup and you in danger and the pup will most likely take away lots of your energy. I will have to mark you before you return to school but before I do that we must speak to my Father. Until that happens, you are to stay here.” He told her, leaving no room for protest.
“Sesshomaru, are you positive that you want to put your mark on me? Inu’s mate for life.” she asked hesitantly. “Kagome,” he gently cupped her cheek and looked into her sparkling eyes, “I know that Inu’s mate for life and I am positive that I want to have you by my side for the rest of my life. I want you, our pup and any future pups that we may have from now on and forever,” he told her while wiping away a stray tear that fell before kissing her full smiling lips.
Once they pulled apart from their sweet kiss she sighed. “You know, I’m going to have to get all of my belongings if I am to live here from now on. I may have some of my clothes here, but there are still some more along with other things that I want to get from my house.” she let him know, looking up at him with large puppy eyes hoping to make him give in. Sesshomaru growled at her for making those eyes, he wasn’t going to give into them this time. He wasn’t going to give in.
“No, I refuse to allow my mate and unborn pup to be put in harms way.” He growled out protectively. “I was foolish for not figuring things out before and even more so for letting you return to that bastard. I will not allow it, Kagome. Stop pressing Me.” he demanded. Kagome pouted at him, her eyes becoming even larger. “Come on, Sesshomaru! I didn’t want you acting like this in the first place, which is why I never told you. Don’t you think you’re being over protective much? ” She asked him in a way she knew would press his buttons. “ Hmm,” he pretended to think it over, “No, I do not think I’m being over protective.” he informed her rather matter- of- fact, his stone exterior wasn‘t breaking. “Sesshomaruuuu,” her voice dragged out, “you have to go to classes and to work tomorrow. I don’t have that many outfits here and I need to go get the rest of my things that I want.” she whined at him.
“Besides, my Father is hardly ever home. What’s the chance of him being home tomorrow? Let alone during working hours?” she asked him, trying to make him see her point. Sesshomaru gave her a look that wasn’t any too promising as he looked at her. She gave him the puppy eyes that she knew he couldn‘t resist. He gave a heavy sigh, knowing that his stone wall exterior had just been torn down and crumbled to piece.
“Very well, Kagome, I will allow you to get your things tomorrow. But you can only go if you concede to my conditions.” He told her. He was not going to budge on this.
“ Okay,” she agreed, “and those would be?” she asked ,curious as to how many of these ‘conditions’ she was going to have to follow to be able to go over to her house and get her belongings. “ You will take your cell phone with you and call me when you get there, when you return, and when or if anything happens,“ he started, “Better yet, before anything can happen. I do not want you or our pup getting hurt by your so called Father” he spit out the last of his words with great distaste. “Also, I want you to be careful. Do not let your guard down, Kagome.” his look was serious, more serious than his words.
She couldn’t help the small smile from forming on her face at him being so protective. She had never had anyone care about her the way that Sesshomaru did, she felt lucky to have him. “ I Promise.” she whispered to him, leaning in to give him a soft kiss that he returned along with a comforting hug. She wasn’t looking forward to going to get her things in fear of her father, but it had to be done. She didn’t want anyone else to go inside that house; she didn’t want anyone else to see.
A/N: This is a revision/ re-edited version of my story “Proud Mistake” There will be changes in this new version, but will still follow the basic context of the original story except I had planned to add actual lemons to it. I would like to know if there are any objections or if anyone has any ideas that they would like to share. I would be willing to make a version without lemons if it is requested.
New chapters will be posted to “Pride in Debauchery” once all chapters have been revised. After the revision is complete, “ Proud Mistake” will be deleted. Thank you to all of my readers. I hope you enjoy the edited version!