Madame Butterfly by kiltykat

Chapter One

:Warning: Bad grammar up ahead... not using Microsoft Word yet... you've been warned!

Hey guys! Meet my newest fic 'Madame Butterfly' I need to know rather it should be canceled or if I should continue.... so review! Here it is!

Chapter One

I don't remember when everything went wrong... and I don't remember why it happened. All I know is it started with her and her damn 'Madame Butterfly'...

I am unaffected by time, some might call it immortality, but I, Sesshoumaru call it hell. Fate was a cruel thing, to make you live forever, while everything around you crumbles... That is my fate, perhaps I could be freed from it, but suicide is a cowards way out, and my pride is too large to let another kill me. I have but no one else to tell this to, journals are not private enough and can easily be used against one such as myself, and I trust nobody else... So listen carefully...

"Damnit!"

The voice rang clear in the wide open spaces of the empty field, the 'twang' of breaking vines and the thump that followed could only be from one person... Kagome Higurashi...

The clouds rumbled in their welcome giving promise of much needed relief from the heat that summer had bared upon them. Her yellow back-pack stuffed to the brim with unneccesary objects weighed heavily upon her shoulders, and she had to try three times unsuccesfully before finally succeeding in getting out of the cursed well. As she stumbled out on to the cool grass she sent a scathing glare over her shoulder to the silent wooden menace...

'Stupid well... always causing problems...'

She struggled to get to her feet, fighting balance with her heavy yellow contraption... Sometimes she really wondered how she carried it... Suddenly, as another rumble filled the humid, sticky air, a frown pasted itself upon the young girls face.

She stood in the middle of that empty field looking around her for some time before shrugging her shoulders and heading off towards the village that had become a second home to her, surrounded by people she called her family... She trampled her way along the path, that she knew by heart, blissfully unaware of the preadtory eyes gazing at her from the shadow's...

'I wonder where Inuyasha is... I mean usually he's yelling in my face as soon as I return!'

A look of sudden realization hit her in the face and her eyes became heavy with tears...

'He's not here, because he's with Kikyo...'

She furiously wiped her eyes and berated herself for being so weak. Countless amounts of tears had be wasted upon him and she was tired of it... but she couldn't help but love him. He was her everything, her hero, her breath, the very beat of her heart... but as the hollow thumps beat against her small delicate hand, more tears filled her troubled eyes. Sucking in as large an amount of air as she possibly could, she forced a certain silver-haired hanyou out of her mind, and gave more thought on to looking happy to greet her friends. She knew she'd worry them if they caught on to her sadness... and she didn't want to be such a bother all the time. Besides, who's to say Inuyasha was with Kikyo? Another thought whipped her in the face... what if he was hurt? She felt her legs starting to move but her mind wasn't telling them where to go, they just knew...

What if he was hurt from an attack that happened while she was gone? What if... what if he was dead?

Kagome was sprinting as fast as her legs could carry her now, not caring if the stinging of branches whipped at her arms or if her vision blurred from tears that were coursing their way down her reddened cheeks... The village was in sight and she saw her friends, her family, standing outside of Kaede's hut. She saw the worried looks they shot her and she slowed to a stop in front of them...

"Kagome-sama? Is everything alright?"

Miroku's words cut through... was everything alright? She had to know...

"That's... what... I wanted... to ask... you guys..."

She looked into each confused face as they looked to and from each other...

"Kagome-chan... are you ill?"

Sango, her sister... always worrying about her. Still not catching her breath Kagome merely shook her head and took deep breaths, sighing when her breathing returned to her...

"Where's Inuaysha?"

She noticed the guilty looks on their faces and in each one she found her answer... and from each face, her heart dropped a little more...

'So he was with Kikyo afterall... all that worrying for nothing...'

Looking down, letting her bangs shield her eyes she said, "Oh, I see... It's just, I was worried something might have happened to him, since he wasn't at the well to greet me you know? But it's okay, really... at least he's safe."

She nearly cried out when she felt Sango wrap her arms around her fiercly, the sting of tears once again blurring her vision... but when she felt the wetness on her back, her worry for her sister engulfed her own sadness. She was so selfish, caring for her own needs when here Sango was obviously troubled about something... most likely Kohaku... She returned Sango's embrace and rubbed soothing circles on her back.

"Shh... Sango, whatever it is we'll make it through together huh? Cheer up, please? For me?"

Noticing the tears only came more frequently Kagome began to panic...

"Sango! Please don't cry! Whatever it is I'm here to help you with it! I'm here for you sister!"

She felt Sango grasp onto the back of her shirt and barely heard Sango's harsh whisper of, "I hate him..."

Kagome frowned... was she talking about Naraku? If not him, then who?

"Naraku?" Kagome questioned gently, only to be met with a soft laughter...

"Kagome... you are too forgiving. It'll be your downfall one day..."

Few words, but they spoke volumes... enough to fill a thousand books... She knew now... Sango hated Inuyasha... the question was, why?

Stopping the rubbing she pulled away from Sango, giving her a questioning look.

"Why?"

She looked at Sango's shocked face and tried to think of anything, any reason why Sango would hate him... Anger bubbled in her chest when she thought that maybe, possibly, something had happened while she wasn't there. She wasn't there to comfort her sister.

"Did he say something to you? Because if he did I swear i'll 'sit' him all the way to-"

"Why don't you hate him Kagome?"

A gentle look of understanding floated across Kagome's face... ahh, so that's why huh?

"Sango..." Kagome began gently, "However much I might not like him going to her, I can't stop his heart..."

"But Kagome..." Kagome raised her hand for silence and started again.

"To do so would be selfish, and I don't want to make him unhappy..." She felt the lump in her throat trying to make her quit talking, and tears blurred her vision, but she continued... "I always want him to smile and be happy, and if Kikyo make's that happen then, i'm happy."

Kagome knew that was only a half-truth... but, to say otherwise was mean... She watched Sango's shoulder's slump and the defeated look scetch it's ways into her features...

"But why Kagome? Why does him choosing her make you happy?"

Kagome sighed and gently embraced Sango again and whipped a piece of hair behind her ear... placing her hands in her lap and looking away, towards the blackened sky, threatning the village with summer rain she whispered, "Because I love him..."

And as she looked back at Sango, her sister, her friend... She met her tears with a smile...

And it would seem, that life wasn't so confusing anymore...

Hey guys! Sorry about the spelling and grammar, I'll fix it later! Tell me what you think!!!