Gradual Attraction by FallenTenshi

Gradual Attraction

I remember that fateful day when I first laid my eyes upon you. You, at my despicable half-breed of a brother's side. You handed over the Tetsusaiga to his filthy, undeserving hands. That sword, the great Inutaisho's fang, which rightfully should have been mine.

I tried to kill you back then, in my father's grave. You bravely stood up to me. With absolutely no fear. With such a rare fire in your eyes. I had gotten enraged to think that a lowly ningen girl dared to defy me in such a manner. I had encountered no one in my travels that had not feared me.

My rage caused me to lose control, making me sloppy in battle. This mistake cost me something very important. That distraction allowed my brother to attack me. He severed my left arm. I howled in pain. I cursed at my own foolishness. I retreated back to my fortress in spite of the hurt it caused me.

When I reached my castle, I went to sleep dreaming of your eyes. The eyes that held such a burning compassion. They soon invaded my mind, haunting me in my sleep. I could not stop envisioning them in my head. I woke up in the middle of night several times, unable to sleep. Unable to tear away from their determined gaze.

Your eyes got me first.

I recall myself silently following you and Inuyasha shortly after that battle. I tried learning more about you. I wanted to learn what spell you cast on me. What did you do to me that allowed me no sleep. You were the sole subject of my thoughts now.

One day, I saw you in the fields playing with that kitsune pup you had taken in. I could not steer my gaze away from you. Finding it impossible to look away from your ecstatic form. You were no stunning beauty, though. It is true that I had met youkai and even ningen females prettier than you. Yet you possessed a radiant smile. That is what had me staring at you the whole time.

Your warm smile drew me in closer.

As you continued on your quest for the Shikon no Tama, I grew more confused and intrigued by you. I was starting to have strange unidentifiable feelings arise from within me. I still followed you and your group from a distance. I no longer desired to obtain that sword I had so desperately sought after. My attentions wavered to something or rather someone else. I still faked my need for the sword as an excuse to see you from a closer distance. That pathetic hanyou did not notice however, that when we fought, my attention was directed to you. Throughout the whole fight, my mind always strayed to you.

Over the next few months, I learned you name. Kagome. It was musical and fitting for one such as you. I was still drawn to you during those months. Like a moth and a flame. I was the moth, mesmerized and you were the bright flame. Your personality and attitude never failed to pull me in. I was obsessed.

Then, it hit me.

A sudden revelation.

I realized that you had not performed any magic on me, in the form of trickery, that is. It was all made clearer to me now. I knew why I always growled possessively over you when another male came close to you. I found out why you never left my mind. Why I followed you. Why I felt bitter anger when you confessed to that taijiya of your love for that hanyou. One word was the answer.

Attraction. Simple as that. It summed up everything.

Yes. This Sesshoumaru, Taiyoukai of the Western Lands, was attracted to a female. The first female I had ever had feelings towards besides my mother. A ningen onna at that! I could not help but feel ashamed. My father and half brother's attraction to ningen women seemed to have overcome me as well. I felt dirty and disgusted at myself. When I saw you, though, that changed. I put the fact that you were human aside. I was willing to make you an exception. Now, I just wanted you to hold some of the same feelings for me as well. Whatever they were.

Several years passed. You grew up to be a beautiful woman. Like a tennyo. MY tennyo. Perfect curves, waist length hair, and a bit taller. The goddesses would have been jealous of you. Although you changed, my feelings for you did not. Instead, they intensified. A year earlier, I had realized something. I loved you.

You had achieved something in 3 years that no one else did when they have tried for centuries. I had felt again. Since the death of my mother, those many years ago, I had emotionally hardened. Now, I had opened up again to care for someone. How I longed for you to accept and return my love.

My wish gradually became closer to fulfillment as time passed. Then, that wonderful day by the lake came. Earlier in the day, you had walked in on Inuyasha and his undead clay whore together. You ran to the nearby lake and sat by the water's edge. I came out of the shadows and quietly sat next to you. You were shocked at first when you saw me. But that shock subsided as soon as it had come. You told me what you had seen that made you come here. I felt your pain. I held empathy for you. I knew what it was like to feel unrequited love.

We sat on the shores for quite some time. It was coming close to nightfall.

We shared our troubles and secrets, enjoying each other's company. You learned of my mother's death, I learned of your father's. I found out that you were not of this time and that you could not return after the jewel had been wished away. You opened up to me about your feelings and thoughts. I became you confidant. You told me about how you were envious of the houshi and taijiya's happy life together. Lastly, you told me of your wish to be loved. If only you knew. You broke down crying. I took you in my warm embrace and comforted you.

Many nights had passed with us like this. We got closer and I fell deeper in love with you. Then, it finally came. Do you remember that night? The night of the full moon. That was the night when we confessed our love of each other. I was extremely happy, more so than ever in my life. We consummated our love under the moonlit sky. Our love making was so full of passion.

Sadly, it has now come to an end. I must bid you farewell. You must pass on to above, where you belong, my tenshi. I thank you for helping me love again. I must also thank you for granting me 2 wonderful children. I will take care or them with such care as they serve as a reminder of our time together. Perhaps I will see you again and we will never be apart then.

Goodbye,

My wife,

My first love,

My soul mate,

My Kagome.