Is It Still Me That Makes You Sweat?

- Insomniak

Rating: NC-17

Pairing: Sesshoumaru/Kagome

Disclaimer: I do not own the characters or plot of Inuyasha. I am not making any profit off of this.

"Lying Is The Most Fun A Girl Can Have Without Taking Her Clothes Off"

Panic! At the Disco

Is it still me that makes you sweat?

Am I who you think about in bed?

When the lights are dim and your hands are shaking as you're sliding off your dress?

Kagome gasped as she slammed directly into a strong chest, sending her sprawling to the floor, her files scattered around her. Without looking up, she scrambled to collect all of the files and restack them while pulling her skirt down slightly. A pale hand appeared in front of her face, palm up. A blush stained her cheeks as she took the proffered hand and rose to her feet, files clutched to her chest.

"Thank yo-" A gasp escaped parted lips as Kagome finally looked up, her ocean blue eyes widening comically. "Sesshoumaru..."

The man in front of her smirked slightly, gold eyes obviously amused at her reaction. "Kagome." He replied after a moment before his eyes hardened to an unreadable expression. Even then it wasn't the same horribly blank and indifferent look that he gave to everyone. Though her heart wrenched painfully, it didn't crumble as she thought it might when this meeting happened. To be fair, she had been avoiding it to the best of her ability and had had time to prepare herself as much as possible.

"What a...pleasure to see you again." The sarcasm and mild distaste in his tone suggested that he would have preferred to use some other word other than pleasure. "I see that you have managed to follow your dream." A hand waved lazily towards the files clutched to her chest. "Public Relations, I take it?" He continued at her silent nod. "What company to you work for?" He questioned conversationally.

"I'm...in transition. I had to quit my job at Wolf Industries." Her eyes roved the ground rather than his face and she didn't explain further.

"Ah, yes Kouga. He comes off a bit...strong for your tastes I would think." She glanced up in mild surprise and saw his knowing look. "As you should know, Taisho Corp. is merging with Wolf Industries. Thus, I have had to endure his irritating womanizing every time he comes to my office." His lip curled upward in disgust at the memory.

Kagome took the opportunity to question him a bit hesitantly. "So your company is as successful as you planned, then?" Sesshoumaru replied with an arrogant expression. "Of course it is. I don't accept anything less than the best.

Then think of what you did

And how I hope to God he was worth it

When the lights are dim and your heart is racing as your fingers touch your skin.

All of a sudden the conversational mood left them both and Kagome felt her stomach clench. They were in the middle of an underground parking lot after hours and the solitude made her nervous. While she had no idea why he was there, she had been applying for a job at Houshi Inc. where her friend Sango worked.

"So Kagome..." Sesshoumaru's tone was dangerous as he took a step closer, causing her to step back with a jump. He did not seem amused by her reaction. "How is our dear, InuYasha?" He hissed outward, eyes flaring red for an instant. This is what Kagome had been afraid of.

When they were in High school, Sesshoumaru had been in the grade above her and she had been in the same grade as his half-brother InuYasha. Kagome had had a crush on InuYasha since she was little, but they had become good friends instead. Ironically, Kagome had fallen in love with his brother, Sesshoumaru. However, until his senior year he didn't even look in her direction. It took her by surprise when in her junior year he told her that she was his girlfriend in that arrogant manner that he had. Enraged by his arrogance, she had refused and found herself pinned to a wall with his lips on hers. After that they had been inseparable and Kagome had fallen head over heels for Sesshoumaru.

Then Sesshoumaru graduated and could not see her as often. The many girls that threw themselves at her boyfriend had always intimidated Kagome. She had become jealous when she saw Kagura coming out of his apartment when she was on her way there one day. The perfect couple had had a fight; Sesshoumaru was enraged by her lack of sweat and threw her out. Heart-broken and miserable, Kagome had gone to see InuYasha who had managed to fill her up with a few shots of Vodka and seduce her in her inebriated state.

Sesshoumaru had come to find Kagome to apologize and found them in bed together. Inuyasha's arrogant smirk as he leaned down to kiss Kagome's unconscious form had thrown Sesshoumaru into a rage. He had been completely unwilling to listen when Kagome had figured out what was going on. Despite her hatred of him after what he had done, she couldn't sever her friendship with Inuyasha because he was all she had left.

"Sesshoumaru, I..." Her voice rose as if to continue before her sighed, let her shoulders slump and averted her eyes. "I don't know, Sesshoumaru." She replied in a dull tone. It was the tone of someone who was tired and simply couldn't deal with the situation any more.

I've got more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better fuck

Than any boy you'll ever meet, sweetie you had me

Inuyasha had married Kikyo two years ago and Kagome had finally deserted him, unable to bear his presence any longer after he had destroyed her love life. The two year relationship she had had with Sesshoumaru had been one that she wanted to continue for a long time. She had adored him, his arrogance, his kisses, his wit, his face, his ambition, his voice, his self-confidence and his touch, his...everything. He had been her first in every sense of the word and that simply doesn't leave someone's mind or heart.

Long after he was out of her life she had attempted to have other relationships. None of them had worked out. Hojo was too nice and simply didn't light the fire in her that Sesshoumaru had. They had stayed friends and he was happily engaged to Yumi, another of Kagome's friends from high school.

Naraku had been a huge mistake. He had practically raped her and abused her. The only reason she had gone out with him had been because he held that same air of ambition and ungodly beauty that she had only seen in Sesshoumaru. Despite Naraku not comparing to the one she loved, she had tried to have a relationship with him. However, he was far too forceful and quick to verbally beat her down.

Kouga had been another one. Boyish charm plus an arrogance that she subconsciously craved, it was exactly what she thought she wanted. It wasn't meant to be, though. Kouga was almost adorably possessive, but she felt smothered and she didn't like the way he constantly grabbed at her. Last she heard, he had gotten together with his secretary, Ayumi.

The only other male she had seen in a romantic sense was Miroku. He was, of course, the owner of Houshi Inc. and after one blind date they had decided it wasn't meant to be. He and Sango were still together despite his lecherous habits. Kagome had been in to see him to apply for a job this afternoon.

"What is wrong, Kagome?" Sesshoumaru's voice pierced through the light depression clouding her mind. A hysterical laugh escaped her lips.

Girl I was it look past the sweat, a better love deserving of

Exchanging body heat in the passenger seat?

No, no, no you know it will always just be, me

"Why do you care, Sesshoumaru?" She flung her free arm haphazardly around. "Let's drop this pretense, shall we? Why bother being civil when I know you want to kill me!?" She dropped the files to the ground, ignoring them. Her arms moved emphatically and wildly with her every word as if to support her twisting emotions. "What is it you want from me? You already have your revenge, I haven't been able to have a relationship since you!" Tears slipped down her cheeks in her hysteria.

"Ka-" She interrupted him. "No! It wasn't my fault! I'm being punished for something that that bastard I called a friend did! But no, I don't want your damn pity. I deserve it, I know. I just..." She seemed to deflate before Sesshoumaru's eyes and sunk to the ground as if to make it more obvious. "I don't know what to do. I feel as though my life is incomplete even though I've managed to accomplish my dreams..."

A laugh escaped her, without the hysteria this time. "I feel as though I am a puzzle where the wrong pieces were forced together rather than someone taking the time to put them in the right spots." An ironic smile tugged at the corner of her lips. Her head tilted back, staring up at the cement ceiling as she leaned back on a random red car behind her.

"Sesshoumaru, please...just leave me alone..."

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster

So testosterone boys and harlequin girls

Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?

So testosterone boys and harlequin girls

Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?

"Kagome...I." Sesshoumaru stopped, trying to find the correct words. "I spoke to InuYasha, but I never believed him. He told me the truth after he and Kikyo got married. She's good for him and forced him to tell me what really happened. She suggested that you still care, but...I simply didn't believe..." He stopped again, searching for those elusive words before sinking to the ground beside her.

"I don't take betrayal well and I handled the situation poorly. You don't deserve any misery that I caused because of my mistake. I wanted to hurt you so badly when I saw you with him, but I simply couldn't. I had to get away so that I didn't have to see you any longer. I thought that you had stayed in a relationship with my half-brother, but he told me that I was mistaken..."

Kagome looked at him, eyes wide, only to see him gazing at the ceiling as she had been before. Sesshoumaru simply did not sit on the ground in a parking garage. Nor did he apologize. She was tempted to speak, but held her tongue to see what else he would say.

"I owe you an apology, Kagome. I don't know if you can forgive me, but I ask that you do..." A sigh escaped sculpted lips as he finally turned to look at her, gold meeting blue.

"Sesshoumaru...I love you. I couldn't hate you even if I wanted, so my forgiveness was given a long time ago." She replied sadly.

So I guess we're back to us, oh cameraman, swing the focus

In case I lost my train of thought, where was it that we last left off?

(Let's pick up, pick up)

Sesshoumaru clutched her hands suddenly, turning to sit on his knees as he gazed into her widened eyes. "Though it is unlikely, I wish you would eventually consider coming back to me. I have not been able to have a real relationship since you either. Noone compares to you." His eyes were intent and his face was serious.

Oh now I do recall, we were just getting to the part

Where the shock sets in, and the stomach acid finds a new way to make you get sick.

I hope you didn't expect that you'd get all of the attention.

Now let's not get selfish

Did you really think I'd let you kill this chorus?

Kagome's stomach twisted as the stress of her emotions hit her. "Sesshoumaru, I don't know...it has been so many years..." Oh how she wanted this, but she simply couldn't agree...

"But you still love me." It was a statement.

"Of course I do!" Kagome replied emphatically

"Then tell me why you do not with this as I do?" He replied.

"Sesshoumaru, it isn't that easy." She could see the question in his eyes and answered before he could ask. "We both have separate lives now, how can we pick up where we left off? We are different people now. And...you hated me for so many years..."

"No. I never hated you and I have been waiting to find you since Inuyasha told me the truth. While I did not believe what he said, I wanted to." He replied. "I would rather be the 'bad guy' if it means that you did not do what I thought you had."

Kagome looked up at him, a dangerous expression in her eyes. "Do you love me?"

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster

So testosterone boys and harlequin girls

Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?

So testosterone boys and harlequin girls

Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?

"Do you ask because you think I will say no?" He replied, mildly amused. "Yes, Kagome. I love you. I always have, even after." He didn't need to explain what 'after' referred to. "You are the only woman who had ever wormed herself into my heart, and none other ever will." He added with a sense of finality.

Kagome was on him before he could do anything else, her lips pressing to his desperately.

Dance to this beat

Dance to this beat

Dance to this beat

"Kagome..." He moaned out her name as his fingers tangled in her hair. "Is this what you really want?"

"Yes!" She hissed out as she recaptured his lips, pushing him back onto the concrete floor of the parking garage, unbuttoning his shirt with nimble fingers. His hands held her hips as she straddled him, before running up her back under her shirt. "Kagome...this isn't really the place..." He added before letting out a gasp as she managed to rip off his shirt and ran her tongue over his nipple.

This new domineering side of Kagome was something he wasn't used to and he found that he liked it very much. Finally giving up on making her see reason, he pulled her head roughly to him, letting his tongue war with hers as she unhooked his pants and he unbuttoned her shirt with a vengeance.

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster

Sesshoumaru's mouth latched onto the side of her neck as her hands cupped him, causing them both to moan before Kagome detached herself from him and slid lower. She met his eyes as she slipped his pants lower, and pulled his boxers somewhat down. Her tongue circled his navel and ran along his hipbones. She had never looked more attractive in her life than as she was now with her hair a tangled mess, her shit unbuttoned and gaping open, her skirt running up, as she straddled his legs and ran her tongue over her lips.

He arched and gasped as she quite suddenly went down on his member, going down as far as she could before pulling back and then running her tongue along the slit, then the vein before sucking on it and rolling his balls in her hand. She was like a cat lapping up milk as she ran her tongue along his inner thigh absently blowing on his member as he gasped and tangled his hands in her hair. She was very good at this and if she didn't stop he would cum very quickly.

"Kagome..." A moan. "You have to stop..." He arched as she deep throated him, quickly shooting himself off into her mouth as her eyes met his. She swallowed and considered to suck at him and lick him. After the orgasm, the pleasure of what she was doing was painful, but it made him arch anyway as he panted, before he managed to pull her up towards him.

I've got more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better fuck

Than any boy you'll ever meet, sweetie you had me

Girl I was it look past the sweat, a better love deserving of

Exchanging body heat in the passenger seat?

No, no, no you know it will always just be, me

In frenzy, he kissed her before flipping them over, ignoring how ridiculous he must look with his pants and boxers now at his knees. While he waited for his second wind to hit him, he would make sure she got the same treatment. With a quick movement he unhooked her bra and slipped off her skirt. His mouth wrapped around her nipples, sucking and lapping before nipping and licking at the underside of her breasts he knew to be hyper-sensitive, causing her to give a surprised gasp. His tongue them traced every line and angle of her throat and collarbone.

Kagome was panting as he moved lower. She spread her legs as he traced her ribcage and circled her navel before he dipped his tongue in causing her to arch once more. "Sess..." She moaned as he went lower, licking at the underside of her knees and nipping at her inner thighs.

"Sesshou...please..." She panted out as he smirked. He wouldn't make her beg...yet. He found himself beginning to stand at attention again, anyways, so he ripped off her silky black underwear. He did as she asked and buried his face between her legs. He parted her folds and run his tongue down her slit before circling the little nub that gave her so much pleasure. Her hips jumped as he did this and he replied with suction causing her to gasp his name and moan loudly. She was near screaming, which he loved. The fact that someone else could hear them aroused him further.

He focused all of his attention on her and was rewarded with her legs clenching spasmodically around him as her body stiffened and arched off of the cold concrete ground. Her voice echoed around them screaming his name. He had missed how unbelievably responsive she was; it was magnificent.

While she was almost incoherently limp he slipped off his shoes and socks, followed by pants and boxers. He shed his shirt and quickly slipped her opened bra and shirt from her shoulders. Luckily the car they were leaning on was his and he quickly tossed their clothed into the back seat before picking her up, opening the passenger side door and dropping back the seat. He laid her down on it as she looked at him curiously and he crawled in on top of her, closing the door behind him.

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster

So testosterone boys and harlequin girls

Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?

So testosterone boys and harlequin girls

Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?

"Sesshou?" He simply smiled at her and moved his fingers down to her slit, where his face had last been. He fingered her easily, rubbing his thumb around her swollen clit. He licked up the side of her neck as he spoke to her. "Do you want me, Kagome?" She moaned lowed and arched as he slid down into a rather uncomfortable position, managing to lick her inner thigh. "Kagome..." He whispered as she jumped and moaned when he buried his face between her thighs once more.

"Y-Yes..." She gasped out.

"Yes, what?" He replied, sucking on her clit.

"Yes, please, I want you..." She gasped. "I want you in me!" She barely managed to get the words out of her mouth. He quickly moved into a less awkward position as she wrapped her legs around him and he used a hand to guide himself into her. She moaned as she adjusted to fit him.

He pulled out and slid back into her as she pushed up to meet him. They formed their own rhythm, speeding up as he slammed into her harder. With a rather complicated move he reversed their positions. If the situation had been different, he might have laughed at how she had to lean over him in order to ride him, but at the moment he was quite distracted. Long fingers moved to her center and she gasped, grinding down harder on him as his other hand moved to grasp her hip firmly.

She panted above him, throwing her head back hard enough to bruise it on the roof of the car as she clenched around him and screamed out his name. Both hands now gripping her hips, he slammed up into her once more with a low growl of pleasure and a sultry murmur of her name flowing out of his lips.

Both of them were sweating and panting heavily, and Kagome finally collapsed onto his chest where he quickly curled an arm around her. Despite being bruised from various objects in the car, being in an extremely awkward position and being uncomfortably sticky, he was more comfortable and content than he had ever been in his life. With that thought on his mind, he pulled Kagome closer onto his chest, one hand brushing stray black strands from her face as he stared at her in awe. He had always been an arrogant man, but he was aware of just how lucky he was to have been given the gift that Kagome was. Chances were, he had done nothing to deserve such a magnificent thing.

"Kagome." He said softly, caressing her cheek. Sapphire eyes blinked open wearily and stared unabashedly into his golden ones. "Yes, Sesshou?" She asked sleepily. He smiled at how adorable she was. "I love you, Kagome." She smiled genuinely at him and replied. "I love you too, Sesshou." With that she lay back on his chest, her ear over his quickened heart beat as he once more thanked Kami for the miraculous gift of love he had been given from the small woman.

So testosterone boys and harlequin girls

Dance to this beat

So testosterone boys and harlequin girls

Dance to this beat

And hold a lover close

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster