Going Back by Mistress_of_Night
chap.1
On her knees out side the well house was the only way Kagome felt close to the past, she missed her friend she wanted to see them, Inuyasha had fallen in with a hanyou named Kohana, a kitsune hanyou. Sango and Miroku had stared a life together, Shippo thought of her as a mother and was now alone, she had found another who seemed to always be there when she needed him. She would have never thought that she would fall in love with Sesshomaru, lord of the western lands. She didn't know how she had fallen for him or when but she did, and now she sat at the well house before leaving to the store, it was the only way she felt close to them. Right after the damn jewel went back in her body she was taken back here.
Oh how she missed Sesshomaru, right now crying was all she could do, just sit there on the dirty ground and cry her eyes out. Her mother came out to see her daughter had not gone to the store yet and was once again crying. She never seen her like this not even when Inuyasha would hurt her, she really love the man- demon in the feudal era. Kneeling down next to her daughter she pulled her in an embrace.
Kagome sniffled after a little bit of crying on her mothers shoulder. Looking up she seen her mother smile at her. Kagome rubbed the tears from her face with the back of her hands. She heard her mom clear her throat.
"Kagome how about we both go to the store, we could use a walk." Her mother smiled brightly and Kagome nodded.
As they walked Kagome thought of every one in the past and how they used to travel around, or how Miroku would say something about and ominous cloud above the village to get a place to stay. Then she though of how Sango would beat Miroku to death for groping her or other women. She remembered how Inuyasha would nag at them to hurry up and go to find the jewel shards and argue about come back to her time for things they needed, and how she used to sleep with Shippo cuddled to her, or how he loved eating chocolate. She felt a stab in her heart and even worse when she though of how Sesshomaru would step on Jaken's head for picking on Rin or growl at Inuyasha, then how he had spent a couple of time alone together watching the two children play together.
Once they were at the store Kagome walked down to the ramen a candy to where she always did when shopping for the group. She was looking at the ramen with a sad glint in her eyes, she never got to tell Sesshomaru how much she felt for him before leaving she was too afraid to. She felt someone push her slightly then was shocked hearing a voice she though she would never hear.
"You in my way." She heard Sesshomaru's voice, turning she found only an older woman and her grandchild behind her and no one else.
She found her mom paying for the food and waited, once finished they walked back down the street to the shrine. Kagome shook her head trying to get Sesshomaru's voice out of her head. She couldn't believe she thought he was there. Sighing she looked at the shrine up the long flight of stairs. Everything she looked at around her would jus bring a flash back of the lush green forest around her in the feudal era. He mother noticed that Kagome wasn't walking anymore and seemed to be day dreaming. Tapping her shoulder Kagome shook her head again. Once up the stairs and in the house she said she was going to take a nap.
When night came Kagome woke up, walking to the well house she opened it up, she got on her knees while her arms were on the rim of the well. Laying her head down on her arms Kagome begin to sing.
you don't remember me but i remember you
I lie awake and try so hard not to think of you
but who can decide what they dream?
and dream I do...
I believe in you
I'll give up everything just to find you
I have to be with you to live to breathe
you're taking over me
have you forgotten all I know
and all we had?
you saw me mourning my love for you
and touched my hand
I knew you loved me then
I believe in you
I'll give up everything just to find you
I have to be with you to live to breathe
you're taking over me
I look in the mirror and see your face
if I look deep enough
so many things inside that are just like you are taking over
I believe in you
I'll give up everything just to find you
I have to be with you to live to breathe
you're taking over me [2x]
The tears wouldn't stop she couldn't hold them back, it was just so painful knowing you found some you thought would return your love then be forced to leave them, it was to much, she felt herself being engulfed by the darkness. The depression was taking hold of her, she felt like she had no reason to live without her friends who had become her family, and her new found love. She hurt just thinking his name, any of their names. She loved them all so much, she never thought it would hurt her so much to be without them. She would do anything to be with them.
"I would do anything, Kami... I would do anything you ask of me to be able to live with my friends." She cried out to the gods hoping they would hear her, and have pity on her soul.
She seen a light of pink form before her, looking at it she seen the one who made the very thing that took her to the feudal Japan. Midoriko stood there looking down at Kagome with hurt eyes. She knelt down to her and smiled sadly, feeling the young woman's pain.
"Kagome seeing your soul becoming further and further from the light I came to your cry. I can take you to the demon you love, but you would have to give up the life you have here. You must choose now. I can only open the well at this moment, but then that will be the last time. You wont be able to go back on what you choose." the older woman said in a soft voice.
"But I want to go, I just want to say bye to my mom, gramps and brother." Kagome said with light returning to her eyes.
"Kagome I and your gramps and brother would understand, you love this- Sesshomaru that you are lost without him... I want you happy, and start a family." Kagome turned to see her mom with a smile like always.
"Mama... are you sure?" Kagome stood up and hugged her.
"Kagome I want you to live a happy life, if what you told me of Sesshomaru is correct, he cares deeply for you, you have been back here a month and half, he is probably just as upset as you at all this... go to him." she told her daughter, Kagome smiled as her mom kissed her forehead. She was handed a silver locket with four pictures in it... one of her mom, dad, brother, and grandfather. Kissing her mom on the cheek she walked to Midoriko.
"Tell Souta and gramps I love them." Kagome said and before a tear could leave her eyes she jumped in.
Kagome felt the warmth caress her as the blue light engulfed her form. She was headed back and that's what she wanted. When she landed on the ground she looked up, when she felt the cold air and no roof she climbed up the well in a hurry. When she reached the top she didn't stop to look around. She took off running to the village with tears running down her face, she felt like she was finally home. She ran through the village to Kaede's. she pushed the mat to the side to see Sango, Miroku, Kaede, Inuyasha his mate and shippo they all looked at he like she was a ghost. Shippo got up within a flash only to launch into her arms followed by sango, then Miroku. Once the were done hugging, Inuyasha pulled her to him.
"How?" Inuyasha asked pulling away.
"Midoriko said I was fading from the light and so she allowed me to come back, since without you guys I felt dead." Kagome explained.
"Mama, I missed you so much, I really, really did." Shippo cried in her chest.
"Kagome I don't want you to leave again." Sango also let her tears flow.
"As did I Kagome." Miroku gave her an actual hug with no wondering hands.
"Child, we are all glade ye have came back." Kaede said in her soft voice.
"Kaede, Sango, Shippo, Miroku, Inuyasha, and Kohana... I missed you all." she said then heard a meow and something brush against her leg.
"And you too Kilala." Kagome petted her.
The group sat down while still asking and telling each other thinks that had happen since Kagome left. Kagome learned that Sesshomaru and Inuyasha decided to not fight any longer. And Sesshomaru had stayed by the well for a while after she had left. Kagome's heart fluttered at hearing them tell her that. She asked Sango if she could used Kilala in the morning to go somewhere while Shippo accompanied her. Kagome remembered the doll she left in the feudal era, and decided to give it to Rin, also so Sesshomaru didn't think she was following him or something... yes she would go see him in the morning.
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In the morning Kagome dressed in a kimono Sango gave her, it looked like Sango's except blue gray. She gathered the doll from the place it had been in Kaede's hut. She and Shippo got on a transformed Kilala, then headed west.
Kilala followed her nose to find Sesshomaru and instead of at a castle he was in a field killing two reptile demons. She landed in the field, Sesshomaru looked at her wide eyed. She walked over to him leaving Shippo on Kilala. She had to restrain herself from running to him and throwing her arms around him. She smiled up to him when she reached him. Sesshomaru to say the least felt shocked to see her, the one causing him to hunt demons to take his anger out on losing her.
"Sesshomaru-Sama... I- Um... came to give Rin a gift." She said.
"You lie, I sense it." Sesshomaru stated.
"I- Um- Sesshomaru..."She blushed and couldn't get out what she wanted to say.
"You can not lie." He told her.
"I wanted to see you too." She whispered, biting her bottom lip.
Before she could move he had his arms around her. Kagome blushed as she felt his breath on her neck. She felt something wet slide along her neck to her ear then her jaw. Sesshomaru licked her neck, she tasted so sweet, he couldn't control himself, he was going to ask her to come to his palace with his the night that she left, when she was gone he lost control of his beast for a while, just killing anything in his path. Through his whole life he never felt a want for a woman as bad as Kagome. She was everything he never thought he would need. He dragged his tongue across her jaw and before she could say anything to him his mouth claimed hers.
Shippo hid his face in Kilala's fur as his adoptive mother kissed the most feared lord of the West. He watched how her arms went around the neck of Sesshomaru and kissed him in return. Kilala looked away from the two as they got reacquainted with one another.
Kagome pulled away to catch her breath, when she looked up at Sesshomaru she seen that his eyes were crimson red. Gasping she was going to pull away in fear when he pulled her to him softly growling, meant to calm ones mate. Kagome knew he wouldn't hurt her when she heard his growling.
"Mate, my mate." She heard him purr- growl to her.
"Sesshomaru?" She looked at him with confusion.
"You're mine, my mate." His beast told her claiming her lips again.
Kagome smiled in the kiss, he broke away to pull her tightly against his chest. She heard him command Shippo and Kilala to go back to the village. The complied not wanting to anger the demon lord.
"Sesshomaru, come back to me. Come back out here." She plea for his beast to let Sesshomaru out with a hand on his cheek, his eyes changed back to the normal golden color, she smiled at him when he was normal. He pulled her to him nuzzling hr neck. Kagome rubbed a hand up his armored chest.
"How, you were gone?" Sesshomaru asked her.
"I wanted to see you, in my world without you I felt like I was dying inside. I wan to be with you." She told him, with a soft voice.
"Come stay at my palace, become my mate." He held on her tighter.
"As long as you say three words to me, say 'I love you', please." She said wanting to hear him say it.
"Very well. I love you Kagome." He looked down at her.
"I love you Sesshomaru.." She pressed her lips to his. "I want to become your mate." She pulled away from his lips.
A rare smile came to his lips as he summand his demon cloud, lifting them from the ground he went towards his palace. Tonight he would take this woman as his mate. Kagome would be able to stay with Sesshomaru and not worry about leaving him again. She guessed Kami heard her pleas to have Sesshomaru.