Deserving More: Deserving Another Chance by Only-A-Dreamer

Prologue- Never Doubt It

Disclaimer: I don't own Inu Yasha, but I sure as heck own this story, so don't even THINK of stealing it.

Summary- "Sesshoumaru, I want... I want a divorce," Kagome stammered. "I just can't live like this; it isn't fair to you, or to me."- A crumbling marriage, a possessive husband, a miscarriage, and a car accident. With an amnesiac wife, will Sesshoumaru ever have a chance to make things right?

Prologue- Never Doubt It

"Sesshoumaru, I want... I want a divorce," Kagome stammered. "I just can't live like this, it isn't fair to me, or to you. The... b..." her voice began breaking but she continued, "baby isn't here anymore, there's not really any reason for us to stay married." 'You can do this Kagome, stay strong, this will be better for everyone, everyone except yourself. Sesshoumaru can't stay happy with you.' Even though she thought this way, her heart screamed at her, 'He loves you he said so himself, Sesshoumaru doesn't say anything he doesn't mean!'

But Kagome argued back to her heart. 'You and I both know Inutaisho is right; Sesshoumaru is bound for so much more, he's known a life with so much more. Our marriage didn't begin in love, how much longer until he gets bored and leaves me? He won't love me forever, he would only truly be happy with someone like...like Kagura. Somebody must really hate me up there, to make me fall in love with someone who could never truly love me back. We aren't even from the same social class! They even have to torture me more by giving me only a small amount of time with him.'

Sesshoumaru stared back at her, his impassive face remaining calm, but the confusion evident in his eyes. "Kagome," he started unsteadily, "we've talked about this. You don't know what you are talking about." Kagome's voice rang sharp, as she retorted, "Yes, I do! We don't... we shouldn't... you just shouldn't be with me, I can't bring you happiness, and you..." tears now running down her face, as she went on, her voice minimized to a whisper so quiet, even with his youkai hearing he could barely hear her, "...will never truly be happy with me, you will always regret marrying me, and later on, it's only going to hurt both of us when you start to hate me."

Kagome who had once been standing tall, albeit a bit shaky, now was swaying, but just before she fell, strong arms grabbed at her, pulling her body close against his own body. Looking up at his angelic face made Kagome break into a whole new fit of tears. 'Oh Kami, I don't want to leave him, I know he won't love me forever, but I still love him so.' She could feel his warm breath on her ears, as he leaned down to speak softly into her ears.

"You don't know what you're talking about, Kagome. I love you; NEVER doubt that, we are made for each other. Don't cry," he said softly, as his hand came up to wipe the tears from her face, "I don't want my mate being sad. I don't know what happened today, but whatever you heard, isn't true. And I am happy with you, I would never hate you, I just couldn't. I know that you think you need to give me a child, but truly it's okay. We've talked about the options, remember?"

At her nod, he continued, "We could always consider adoption, or I can buy a surrogate mother, it's okay, stop crying, hmm?" When she continued to shake her head, he gathered her into his arms, stroking her hair.

He truly was baffled, Kagome hadn't cried for over two weeks now, since they had talked it over with the doctor. He didn't know what had happened but he would make sure she told him.

"Kagome?" Sesshoumaru tentatively asked. Kagome lifted her head slightly and looked up at him. "Yeah?" At her answer, he continued, "Did you talk to somebody today, or did someone say something to you while you were out?" 'I will find out who made her think that way, and make sure they pay. Nobody messes with this Sesshoumaru's family!' he silently vowed.

Kagome looked at him. At the look she was giving, he knew somebody must have said something. Her nose was scrunched up, her brow furrowed, and she chewed her lower lip. Obviously she was having inner turmoil. 'How does he know somebody talked to me? I can't tell him Inutaisho talked to me, he'd be so mad.' She remembered when she finally got up the nerve to ask Sesshoumaru about his family when they had gotten married.

Flashback

"Sesshoumaru, do you have any family that needs to know, other than Inuyasha." She asked timidly. Sesshoumaru looked up from the business papers he was looking at, and scowled at her. "I can deal with my own problems."

She had heard from Inuyasha about how Sesshoumaru and Inutaisho, their father, did not get along. 'Even if he doesn't want Inutaisho to know, I know that Inutaisho undoubtedly already knows, and our child still deserves a grandfather. Since I can only provide a great- grandfather...'

"Sesshoumaru, I know that you don't like your father, but..." Her words were cut off by Sesshoumaru's curt snap, "Who told you things about my family!!!" When she opened her mouth to reply, he cut her off once again sneering, "I bet, no, I know it was that disgusting half breed brother of mine's wasn't it? I know how much you adore him, following after his every whim like a good little bitch."

His reply brought tears to her eyes, but even with them stinging the back of her eyes, she refused to cry. She closed her eyes and took a deep breath. "I don't care what you think of me, but you can't deny your father his grandchild just because of some petty vengeance you want to have against your father."

With this, she opened her eyes, and was shocked to realize that Sesshoumaru had somehow cornered her against a wall. When she gazed up at him, she found him in his humanoid demon form, his eyes switching back and forth between gold and red. He growled at her, and when she winced, he smirked. She had known he was a demon, but had never seen him in any other form than his human form. He snarled at her, "You know nothing of my family! Petty revenge? This Sesshoumaru cares nothing of vengeance. I can deny my father anything I want. The child belongs to me!!!"

He brought up a clawed hand against Kagome's face, tracing the side of it, his eyes completely red as he grabbed a claw full of her hair, and pulled her against him, growling, "And you, my lovely wife, also, belong to me. Understand?!!!" When she nodded, he let go of her; she fell, and crumpled to the floor. "Sesshoumaru, please, just let your father know, please?"

Returning to his human form, he looked at her and said, "I never knew how stubborn you were before." He laughed harshly, and then continued, "We will see my father but once, if I feel for any reason, he will never see the child after it is born." Though he would never tell her, he was ashamed of having a human wife, and soon he would have a hanyou child. 'How disgusting it is, that THIS Sesshoumaru has acted just like his despicable father.'

End Flashback

That memory brought a shiver to Kagome. By the way he acted now, if she hadn't experienced it firsthand, she would have never known that the same Sesshoumaru who was so cold to her, was the same one that held her in his arms. Noticing her shiver, he asked her, "Are you cold?" and she shook her head.

Sesshoumaru shifted her so that she was pressed closely against him, and he rested his chin on her head. He chuckled softly at their difference of height. Compared to his 6'4 frame, her 5'5 was diminutive. "We can talk about this tomorrow, okay? Now let's go somewhere else okay? I don't fancy falling asleep with my wife in my study. I mean what if someone catches us?" Sesshoumaru asked her.

She giggled. 'This will be my last night with him, I just want one more night and I'll leave,' she promised herself. Wrapping her arms around his neck and inclining him to lower his head, she went on her tippy toes, and whispered into his ear, "Let's go to the bedroom, ne?" He swallowed hard, feeling her supple body pressed close against her.

(I had to rewrite this chapter, I don't know, it's kind of bad to me. Anyways, if you're a past reader, I am super sorry, and will try to update soon. If you're a new reader, I know it's bad, but I'm trying, just wait for later chapters.)

Love and More,

Aimee.